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1. Goodbye

 

I didn’t want to have to do this. Unfortunately, I have been effectively disabled by chronic Mercury Poisoning.

It’s been a year and a half of an endless nightmare.

My digestive system is messed up, I have food sensitivity, EMF sensitivity, my joints and muscles ache constantly, my body twitches, I can’t sleep, I have tinnitus, headaches, insane itchy skin rashes, my vision is extremely light sensitive, blurry, and doesn’t feel like I’m in my own body. And worst of all, my brain function is severely diminished. I can’t focus on anything, my short term memory is completely shot, and I can’t make a decision to save my life.

The best way to describe this is that I’ve been stuck in a bad trip. And it keeps getting worse.

 

If there was any hope in reversing this, I would never have considered such a drastic measure. But alas, there is no relief, and I can’t live another day like this.

How did this happen? A lot of factors contributed, and I will share the whole story. Please use the link at the bottom of each page or the sidebar to navigate to the different chapters. Just be sure to read through in order. 

It took me a long time to piece everything together, but I’m glad I was finally able to figure it out. I always knew something was wrong with me, however, I always thought that it was somehow my fault. I now have peace knowing that I just got dealt a shit hand, and that I’m not to blame.

 

Some last words:

Josh Larsen – It was good connecting with you through ACC. I was so alone in this until we were able to share our stories. I know you’ll beat this and get your life back. Enjoy CM for me.

Thomas Shepherd – I’m glad we got to meet in that Uber ride. I was in a really low place and hanging out with you really helped me get back in the right direction. You’re going to kill it with your business and your permanent life in Thailand. 

Bua – You are such a special girl. I wish I could’ve been a better boyfriend to you, and I’m sorry that I wasn’t able to provide the life you deserve. I know you’ll find a bunch of happiness and have a beautiful family one day.

Jason – You’re doing such a great job in life and you’re going to be very successful in whatever you end up doing. I’m glad we got to spend time together this summer, but I wish of course that I was in a better state to do more things with you. I’m thrilled to call you my brother.

Brien – I wish I went to your wedding. I’m sorry for being so selfish. You were always a great brother to me and I’m very thankful for that. We had some good times growing up. I wish you and Ali a wonderful life.

Ron – You did your best with me and I appreciate all your efforts in raising me no matter how difficult I was. Thank you so much for being my doctor when I needed help. You added additional years to my life and I’m very grateful for that.

Gary – Thank you so much for being my friend. I don’t know what I would’ve done without you. We had some great times growing up and you helped me with more than you can ever imagine. You and Kat are going to have an amazing life together and I wish I was healthy enough to stick around and be apart of it.

Mom & Dad – Please don’t take this too hard. I’m in a better place now. I know my life has been difficult, but it’s not your fault. Please make my life mean something by following up with my Mercury research requests. Thank you for all your efforts and support.

 

Thank you to everyone else who had a positive impact on my life. Even though I’ve always struggled, there were a lot of good times along the way.

I appreciate you all and hope you have amazing lives.

Love,
Brian

 

Continue to Chapter 2 – Thailand